Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Just like yesterday

Wow it has been over a year since I updated this.... so much has happened, people who need to know already know. I kept a blog on my website, but that site is too closely associated to my professional life, and some of my rantings were not appropriate for all eyes. Now I mostly keep a private journal, because there are things I desperately want to remember, but don't want others to know are running through my mind.

Someone who I would prefer never to speak to again, a person I would prefer to forget exists or ever entered my life, opened up the avenue for conversation via Facebook. The opportunity is tempting, especially considering the mind numbing boredom in the office, I have nothing to do and already finished reading Love in the time of Cholera this week during my hours sitting at the front desk. But I absolutely must resist. However much I would like to forget, I must never forget everything that happened, because once a child burns their hand on a hot stove, they remember not to touch it next time. This is the first week in over a year that I have had peace: normalcy, contentment, rest (within daily routine), days going by without crisis. He just had to stir up the damn pot. He only wants drama and to be his usual, manipulative self, and I am a different woman than I was the last time we spoke, and I will not play ball.